Beloved HI

I dont know if my time is going clockwise or anti clockwise.
Maybe it has stopped.
Should i change the batteries or maybe the spring mechanism.
Since i left , since one relality ended and another started.
Which is the dream version, which is the reality version.
Did i really see you , did we really talk, drink and eat.
Did we really have convergence of the hearts, minds and souls..
Or did i imagine it all.
Is my imagination taking over,
Is it creating scenarios in my mind in a phyical dimension.
Did the "Days In Dubai" exist, do they still exist?
Or did we just meet in our dreams,.........
No i have photos of you,
I have the music and books we bought,
They are real, they are phyical.
Maybe just to me.
I feel tired i feel restless, i do not feel focussed. There is this hallow feeling, something is missing. Yet i am complete. I have lost weight or has weight lost me. You have lost your voice, so too i have lost your voice...... your laughter.
My spirit met a spirit, my soul met a soul , my mind met a mind and my heart melted with a heart and yet i was on my path.....my path of truth , my journey of discovery....my route to freedom...........my search for companion-(on a)-ship. Have you returned to the ship...........have you moved on or have you moved off...If you have left, i beseech you to return to port...i implore you to look back with your heart open....on an island is where you found me and on this island i will always am to remain. Come back teach me to sail, teach to build vessels so hence too i can evade this space this time....
Khalass.... i should expect less and not more....the universe may hurt and in pains of tears as a consequrnce of our union....this union.....this co-existence......
Maisa Hi
I dont know if my time is going clockwise or anti clockwise. Maybe it has stopped. Should i change the batteries or maybe the spring mechanism. Since i left , since one relality ended and another started. Which is the dream version, which is the reality version. Did i really see you , did we really talk, drink and eat. Did we really have convergence of the hearts, mins and souls..Or did i imagine it all. Is my imagination taking over, is it creating scenarios in my mind in a phyical dimension.Did the "Days In Dubai" exist, do they still exist?
Or did we just meet in our dreams,......... no i have photos of you, i have the music and books we bought, they are real, they are phyical. Maybe just to me.
I feel tired i feel restless, i do not feel focussed. There is this hallow feeling, something is missing. Yet i am complete. I have lost weight or has weight lost me. You have lost your voice, so too i have lost your voice...... your laughter.
My spirit met a spirit, my soul met a soul , my mind met a mind and my heart melted with a heart and yet i was on my path.....my path of truth , my journey of discovery....my route to freedom...........my search for companion-(on a)-ship. Have you returned to the ship...........have you moved on or have you moved off...If you have left, i beseech you to return to port...i implore you to look back with your heart open....on an island is where you found me and on this island i will always am to remain. Come back teach me to sail, teach to build vessels so hence too i can evade this space......... this time....
Khalass.... i should expect less and not more....the universe may hurt and also be in pain of tears as a consequence of our union....this union.....this co-existence........
Maybe it is only the voice which has lost you...Get a new one and attune it again with your heat mind and soul...so once again we talk, we share ....we give.....
Coincidences like ours are rare and beautiful. They are pure as white angelic light, there is innocense in expression and symbiosis interactivity.......two become one, which defies the laws os mathematics for 2 one = 2 and not 1.....
I seek in wonder, in amazement, in anxiety feedback of back feed, which ever is to be relevenat....i seek you to either way to release me from this stagnant stance i discovered myself to be today...
i seek your feeling and understanding of the circumstances of the issues...i will not believe that all that time, space and enery was to serve no long term purpose, or that there were to be no determinants to evolve from.............I seek what ever resolution you have arrived at.....what ever positon.....what ever stance...... i (with great restraint and pain) will assure full compliance to your final decision.........
Stranded on an island, awaiting for the ships return...
　
I will bear whatever
As long as I know what to bear.
What I can not bear
Is the unknown …
This to me is unbearable..
I can not accept this time
After coming through the previous time.
If there was no previous time
Then this time is the same
As the time before previous time.
But there was a discontinuity in
The continuity of our time.
There was a break of
3 nights and 4 days.
It is too long to be counted as a dream.
May be I had hit my head
And thus placed in a state of unconsciousness.
Maisa Hi
Your imposed silence is hurting.
I never knew what your needs and expectations were.
Maybe there were none.....for the spirit you are..
The distance each days increases quantum folds
But my feelings are still reaching and holding...
Usually i meet people like you for a maximum of 2 hours and then we depart and forever more i treasure those "Moments" of time as one would treasure rainbow coloured diamonds. I got so use to having these short moments that i did not expect them to last for more than that. I made them acceptable for my existence, never expecting them to last for ever as i use to. For when i expected the moments to last for eternity then even that short moment would be destroyed of its loving memory. I suppose it was the fear of losing that loving memory that my expectations were reduced..
Never imagined that is this life time in this existence that those loving moments could span as they did for 3 nights and four day with you is existence in them.
I will bear whatever
As long as I know what to bear.
What I can not bear
Is the unknown …
This to me is unbearable..
I can not accept this time
After coming through the previous time.
If there was no previous time
Then this time is the same
As the time before previous time.
But there was a discontinuity in
The continuity of our time.
There was a break of
3 nights and 4 days.
It is too long to be counted as a dream.
May be I had hit my head
And thus placed in a state of unconsciousness.
I seek to know what you to have to bear.
I seek how you found those days gone.
I seek news from your heart.
I seek your guides to awake you.
I seek your voice to return.
I seek to know why your voice left
I seek an ending or a beginning.
I will seek untill am told not to seek..